窗外的一场小雪，期待大雪的来临！！！

Germany is really a cold place. 4 years in Nanjing, I witnessed snow and minus temperature. However, it can't compare with the freezeness of weather even above 0 degree  here at all. I still feel cold while wearing the down, though not many people will wear more than me. People here are strange, wearing few, never taking an umbrella even if it rains hard with an waterproofless coat. After a busy week, I finally can have a break in France tomorrow, Strasbourg, an ever German place.

夜深了，我现在才吃上暖暖的热饭，真是可怜啊，从早上9点上课一直上到晚上9点，就吃了个午饭休息了一下。晚饭都是回来后才做的，10点左右才吃上晚饭，这真的是非人的生活啊。

No wonder I felt so uncomfortable last night, just a symptom that I am falling ill again. unwelcome stuffy nose, keep eating things which I shouldn't eat when ill at home. However, no choice now even if it might aggravate my illness. you just have to get used to it, that's all.

一曲新词酒一杯，
去年天气旧亭台。
夕阳西下几时回？

无可奈何花落去，
似曾相识燕归来。
小园香径独徘徊。

I am so hungry now, eating chocolate does make me happy. It is the first time I tasted merci chocolate all my life, in Germany the price is just half of that in China. It is really delicious. 8 kinds of flavor in one box, each flavor with 2 little bars of choco. hmm. fairy like. I will go to buy more next time I visit the supermarket. If anyone who wants to receive my presents of a box of choco on xmas, please write down her address here.  You know I am talking to you. Did you cry this mid autumn festival? I bet no, you are not the one who wanted to do so by the pond any more.

I begin to miss home already, it is earlier than I think I will and it is later than I should normally do. When I am eating now, I feel disgusted and feel like vomitting. The day before, after I slept in my bed for 10 minutes, I cried suddenly. I controlled it and went back to dream. Last evening when I attended the graduation ceremony, when I heard the guitar, I couldn't help them again. Today when I watched the pictures we took in HK, I wept again. Even if there r really blurry and useless pictures which I took to test my new camera, I still am too stingy to delete them, everything is so dear. Just persist for 2 years and I definitely will leave this place. I like China, and I love Guangdong. I miss the people, the constructions and mostly the food there. I am eating like beggars every day. Foods I don't like at all. I feel sick. It takes me more than an hour to finish my rubbish food.

Tonight, after the seminar for courses and study plan explaination. I joined the class activity and went to the bar inside the university. It is actually the first time which made me feel like that I AM IN GERMANY. No Chinese in my class, no one speaks Chinese. There were many times that I wanna speak Chinese out. Only English or German works now. I have the greatest disadvantages, since other students can understand English much better than me, English is almost their first tongue. I have a great problem in understanding some classmate's accent, though the day I get familiar to it will come. It is such an international class. At the table, the guy seated opposite to me was wearing a jacket with Chinese characters on it, and he told me he is interested in Chinese food and wanna try an egg which is black inside. It took me a long time to understand that he meant "Pi dan" or "Song hua dan". I promised him that next time I go to the asian shop, I will bring him one if I see it. He said he hasnt found it in Germany yet. I didn't hear well where he was originally from, but brought up in Germany, and told me how much percent mongolian blood he has. Amin asked me how did I take that pic when I took in front of the webcam 4 years ago. He asked if I screenshot that from a film, because it quite looks like a movie star in a movie he watched before. Oh, I am getting old so quickly now, I don't look like then already. uglier. Dr. Schneider and Jeffrey are both very kind. Schneider is the course director. He sat beside me from another table in the 2nd half part of the party, asking me questions to show care. He said he is 65, but he just looks like 40. However, in the end of the party, people began to lie about age and posting ad for partners. Jeffrey is so nice. He is as handsome as the picture shows though with a bier belly. He said he is 29 and single. He works for our program as a coodinator. In the middle of the party, I was feeling bored. Once he looked back, perhaps seeing me bored and talk to no one, he waited till I looked up to him to take his smile and give mine to turn back his waist. He is so caring and cheerful. I really dunno what's wrong with western woman, why such a man is still single? The only thing I don't like is that he smokes and drinks. In the party, I am amazed that the western world isn't so dirty at all. People don't get drunk(perhaps for the reason of only 3 glass of drinks for each person at most) and the atmosphere is so harmony. No one will force you to drink which is common in China. 5 girls in the class in total. That's better for none. My fear of getting along with my new classmates wipe out already. And I don't refuse gathering any more, everything is so peaceful and clean.

As a Cantonese, we think it might be toxic or infectious to eat some meat that has been stored in a fridge without heating. So this morning before I ate sandwiches, I just put 3 thin pieces of salami into the baker to have them heaten. After 8 minutes, when I wanted to take them out, it shocked me that how much oil they produced. And the meat itself shrank by half. I am worrying that I have eaten this kind of sausage and meat for so many days, how many times this kind of oil has flown into my body, stored in my organs. I might be getting fatter and fatter unconsciously. Plus that food is too sour here, potato salad is sour, meat is sour, everything is sour.

 

an hour later...

 

好震撼，好好睇！点火有点简单，但讲求前后呼应。我才闭幕式的主题是把这展开了的画卷闭上。希望我猜对啦!!!

Today is my lunar year birthday, I am so happy that today my fever finally stopped after it stayed for 3 days at intervals. Thank you, my lucky star in somewhere of the space. I am 23 and single, female, born in Foshan, Guangdong, dreaming of marrying a German doctor since at high school. My birthday wish is to realize my dream within the next 2 years.

This time next month, I will have arrived in a strange place, a place I dreamt of and feel nothing of. I daren't imagine what it will be like at all, it is so horrible.

Take me home country roads
All my memories gather round her
Miners lady stranger to blue water
Dark and dusty painted on the sky
Misty taste of moon shine
Tear drops in my eyes
I hear her voice in the morning Hours she calls me
Radio reminds me of my home far away
Driving down the road I get a feeling that I should
have been home yesterday
Yesterday
Country roads take me home
To the place I belong

SMS came again that there is another gathering tonight. A farewell party to bid farewell of White Hair, the most successful guy among all our classmates in high school up till now. It is said that tomorrow he will leave for Beijing, then take a plane to USA and start a long new journey on study.

    We didn't talk much at all even when in the same class. I always take him as my opponent, and still look forward to the day when I can defeat him in career since I fail on study. Top 5 university in USA, a top researcher. It takes quite a lot of time and effort to surpass him. Luckily we are in different majors. So I can only try to do my best in my field and be more successful than him relatively. Sometimes I even told myself, I am only a female, why compare with the male world? Sorry, honestly, I can't control myself at all. They are all very exccellent in respective field whom I am not sure to meet such group of people again all my life. I really don't feel like attending such a gathering since the hero isn't me. I don't wanna be a supporting role. I even don't wanna meet this proud and glorious guy who wears the nimbus of God, the favorite pet of all teachers wherever he goes. I confess I do envy him, I wanna take back all of these honors one day. I will live to see it.

    Now let's memorize them- the 2004 highschool graduates in Foshan No.1 Middle(High) School. Key class: Class 1, Senior 3.

    I lost this collective picture of us. This is a digital scanned one copied from a classmate's blog. A bit blurry, what a pity.

Such is Cantonese, a group of stingy people. We thought out excuses and reasons to ask the guys who got a plum job to pay for the dinner. However, we had to go Dutch treat in the end. Everyone wanted to put off the burden to another with the reasons that you earn more. And all refused to pay saying that I haven't got the money yet. That's completely different from when I was in Nanjing, where every guy rushed to pay. Anyways, I still prefer our way. In a month, we will disperse in different parts of the world, it is hard to gather together any more. Though we had only 9 out of 52 classmates in total assembled at the dinner, it is still worth cherishing, we heard news from each other and about others who didn't attend. This group of people are as good as before. Less than 10 people will work, all the others will keep studying.

    Lai Haiming, nicknamed as Laden, is same glorious, with experiences as president of student union either in highschool or university, and the good work at study, he has found a job to predict the weathering condition for flights of China Southern Airlines. With sophisticated social intercourse talent like him, it is better to get a job as soon as possible rather than study. He already wears like a middle class or even rich man, even with a briefcase at hand which I find funny though. We wanted to squeeze him to pay at first, however at last he ran out of the trap successfully.

    Pan Zhiquan and Chen Qiwen, both studied software engineering, having good skills for programming. The former will go to work in a company which is in control of all cable tv in Guangdong. The latter will keep further the same major. So when I have programming problem in future, I can ask any of them for help. There is also a girl to study computer major in Singapore, it is said she is quite adept at programming too.

     Xie Junyu, nicknamed Goldfish, will go to Fudan University in Shanghai to further her knowledge in an quite interesting field which even herself can't speak clearly and make us laugh for thousands of times. Liang Zhuobin, who was the God in maths, will go to Chinese Academy of Science in Beijing which enjoys the best priviledge and benifit as a postgraduate in China, free tuition, free lodging, allowance for food, even with more than ￥1000 paid each month. What a fairy life! This girl and this guy will have to study for another 5 years in China until they finish a doctor's degree.

    3 guys will go to USA to study the 5 years Master-Doctor's Degree. He Jingcong (nicknamed white hair) will go Uni Standford. Ye Shuzhen(zhen grandpa), will study in a university in Texas which I dunno the name yet. Zhang Boqian(little brother to everyone since he was born in 1987) will study in Atlanta. They all get at least US$22000 each year as scholarship (high tuition fee in USA though). Lin Tianyu will go Uni Tokyo in Japan next year and Chen Jiajian (Mickey) will go Uni HK. All these guys mentioned, only Zhen grandpa attended the dinner at the last minite when we all finished lunch. He ordered for a cold drink since he was only back from car learning class. He said he would go back home cooking after the meeting dismissed. Some men were even shocked that he cooked.

    Su Qiyao, we all call him Sue, whose dad and my dad are friends too. He got a car licence 2 months ago in Harbin. He spent ￥2900 for learning and getting the licence at the same time. However, he told us that the original price should be ￥2300. The secret is that he hadnt a lesson for car driving yet, more like buying a license with money. We all were greatly shocked that such dark things still happened in the northeast China which is definitely impossible in the south at all. These days he has been using the time before he went back to Harbin to study car driving skills from his mom's friend-a car driving teacher.

    ...Most of the other classmates will further study in original school.

    And me, I will go to Germany, waiting for Goldfish to come, since we made a promise in high school time that we will go to Germany together in future. She said she wanted to cohabit with me. Then 2 guys stared each other, one told the other that I won't cohabit with u...they must have thought of something bad. Chen Qiwen asked me if I know anyone who will go to Italy. I asked for the reason. He said that he wanted to visit Florence. I asked why again. His answer surprised me:" because it is the birthplace of Dante." Jesus, I even didnt know Dante was born there. Compared with the students I knew in Nanjing, my highschool friends are not only good at science but also in history too. I am really proud of us.

    May we meet again at some time, on some day, some month, some year!

    Best wishes to all.

   

    

I have just heard that EU has allowed Porsche to purchase Volkswagen, afterwards it becomes the biggest autnomobile manufacturer in Europe. As you know, the headquater of Porsche is in Stuttgart. So from now on, Stuttgart lives up to its name as an automobile city, which holds Benz and Porsche-VW at hand. Congratulations!

It is still a month to go to reach my 23. Hi, everyone, I am an old virgin, jobless, ugly, that's why I am still single, neither rich nor pretty. Life might be boring but we still have to live it. Why? Because we were born. Next month this time, I will have no mood to write my blog at all since I am prepared to leave my hometown anytime. To a place where I ever dreamt of, and where is destined to hold a basin of tears of mine. My new life has to start there. Not waiting for what life will give me, I asked for such a life myself - to be far away from family where the only love engine exists. I am happy to be alone so far, free and stylish. Even though sometimes I will weep for my loneliness at some silly times. However, life has to be cheerful, I can't keep myself in dark and dusk. I don't like to think about future any more, because I already know it is a teary one. Forget it and live day by day. The dark days will pass, life will pass on. By the way, I like raw salmon, I like Japanese food.

今天在高中的网址上看到说这个“地道口”要封闭了，一切皆成追忆。想当年我每天推着自行车经过此处去到属于高二学生的教学楼，我们还在这个门口站过岗“值日”。还有就是比我们大四届的林达华同学被三个世界著名大学发了全额奖学金，是准博士了，这三个学校可是大名鼎鼎啊，MIT，standford，Princeton。看来我离成为杰出校友的道路还长着呢，怎么跟人家比呢。今天我还跟麦建明说，要他努力追上这个林达华，他们俩都是全国物理竞赛的省前五名内，林能做到，我相信我相中的好马也能，绝不会比林差。同时我也会寄希望于自己，不懈努力，急起直追。Garwin仔，加油！！！

I am going to mark down what have I been doing for the few days I can stay in China before I come back again.  There is less than 4 months time now, I do cherish it. It is not until you are going to lose someone will you notice how much you love her and wanna be with her. I love my country, to the extent that some people will misunderstand me as a nationalist, which I hate much. I will miss my family, my relatives, my high school classmates who are my biggest engine to work hard. 2013 is the 100 anniversary of my high school, how do I dream to drive an expensive car back then and show off in the same school where I experienced the saddest and most valuable years. I have met many excellent people there, who are going to be the pillar of the country in all careers. However, they are my opponents. Hope we will become true friends one day when fame and fortune and competition is nothing for us when we grow old. This is life.